Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Making Progress

I've been a little stuck for inspiration lately. Or maybe there's actually too much, and it's focus that I really lack. Or maybe it's just procrastination leading me to wander the web at the expense of getting anything done. Or maybe there are too many decisions to make. Or maybe those decisions could be expensive and risky. Or maybe they won't lead me where I want to go. Or maybe I don't know what I want. Or maybe I do know but don't know how to achieve it.

Does every parent face this kind of dilemma when their children reach that terrifying point of entering full-time education? Within the next two weeks both the Brown-eyed Girl and Little Boy Blue will set out every morning and won't be back until dinnertime. What an expanse of time to fill! And it would be very easy to fill it with pointless procrastination, temptingly so.

I do have a plan, I'm going to join a driving school and work to finally get a driving license. So that will fill mornings. But that will last a month and then what? What do I want to do? What do I want to be when I grow up?

I do have the answer to those questions but I lack a method to achieve them, hence all the wavering indecision. And of course there is the fear of the unknown, the worry about the risks, the courage I need to gather to progress.

One thing is certain, the spinning in circles really has to stop. It's time to take a step in any direction. I can always turn back if it's not the direction I want to be going in, can't I, can't I?


  1. Good luck with the driving and good luck to the children.
    I'm sure whatever you decide to do you will suceed.

  2. Thank you!
    The indecision is the hardest part!